Anniversary

Tomorrow marks two years ago that I got to hold our little boy for the first time without a single wire, tube or monitor connected to him. After 52 days in the NICU, we finally got to bring home our 3 pound miracle.

Words can not ever describe the feeling, the urning to have him home with us. For those long days in the NICU, the hardest part of every single day was walking out of the hospital without your baby. I have always wondered why the main hospital door had to be the door where the happy mothers were discharged from the hospital with their babies. Yes, so not only did we have to leave the hospital without our baby, we also had to walk past the moms and their new babies waiting for the car to be pulled up to leave the hospital and go home. There were days I avoided that door, taking the under ground tunnel or some other route out of the hospital to spare my heart some extra grief. For a long period of time I couldn't go to the store or out to a resturant without having an emotional break-down---there were babies everywhere and I was so jealous of these other mommys and their babies.

Harrison's prematurity changed me as a person...as much as I was mad at God and mad at the world for allowing this to happen; I am now a much more giving, patient and thankful being. I have learned the reality that life is unpredictable and whatever life hands you, you make the best of it. It's always easier said than done, but I am trying to find some good in what I deem bad.

Harrison's prematurity encouraged us to join the March of Dimes---with the hope of someday that all babies will be born healthy. In the mean time we are raising money and awareness so that less babies are born too soon.

Harrison, you are God's greatest gift to us. Thank you for teaching me everyday to be a kid again...life's too short not to enjoy all the little moments.

We are blessed. Happy second anniversary home with your mommy, daddy & Whitney Dog.

Lots of love BIG GUY!